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Taylor Frankie Paul offered an unfiltered look into her tumultuous life amid a domestic violence controversy, describing it as “hell on earth.”
On Easter Sunday, the 31-year-old star of “Secret Lives of Mormon Wives” shared her emotional struggles on Instagram, writing, “During each panic attack, I prayed for strength as I felt my body succumbing to the stress.” She expressed gratitude for the support she received, noting, “And HE provided that strength in various ways, along with undeniable signs saying ‘I am with you,’ which I look forward to sharing.”
Paul emphasized the importance of prayer, saying, “I’ve prayed since I was young and have never strayed because I believe he wants us to seek help, especially in our darkest moments.” She added a new perspective to her daily routine, stating, “Instead of just asking, I began thanking him at the end of each day, regardless of how low I felt.”
Her heartfelt post included screenshots of intimate text conversations, tearful selfies, and photos of handwritten notes within her Bible, giving followers a deeper understanding of her current emotional state.
The reality star’s social media upload included screenshots of vulnerable text messages and crying selfies, as well as photos of notes written in her Bible.
“I’ve never felt the pain I’m in now,” she wrote. “I cannot breathe. I’m sad, so sad and in so much PAIN. I can’t wait to help those in this.”
Paul additionally shared pictures of her skin breaking out during her “frantic state” and the products, including pain relief patches, she’s been using.
Her co-star Jessi Draper shared message of support in the comments, writing, “I love you ❤️ you’re the strongest person I know.”
On her Story that same day, Paul wrote about “detach[ing]” from her Mormon faith and “writing [that] out asa a release.”
“I’ll always have love and respect toward it,” she began the lengthy message. “I’ll even continue to go with my family at times. With that being said, it’s time to detach myself from it.
“I strongly believe in Christ, God, the Bible, the divine,” Paul continued. “I believe we are loved whether we are praying in the church building from a bathroom floor at home.”
She concluded, “I’ve also experienced grace and love from amazing people that aren’t sure what they believe at all and that’s okay. Point being there is more out there to learn.”
Paul’s troubles kicked off in March when “SLOMW” halted filming as she and ex Dakota Mortensen were investigated over an alleged domestic violence incident from February.
When footage of the duo’s previous 2023 fight — which infamously got Paul arrested — leaked, her upcoming season of “The Bachelorette” was pulled off air.
Paul is now being investigated regarding more past incidents of alleged domestic abuse.
She released a statement last month denouncing the scandal as the result of an “aggressive, jealous ex-partner who refuse[s] to let [her] move on.”
Mortensen, who has denied this “deeply upsetting” characterization, filed for a protective order against Paul.
This resulted in Paul temporarily losing custody of their 2-year-old son, Ever, with a court hearing scheduled for Tuesday.