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In a last ditch effort to avoid spending any more time in jail than he already has, disgraced rap mogul Sean “Diddy” Combs penned a four page letter to the judge who will sentence him on Friday, declaring “how sincerely sorry I am for all of the hurt and pain that I have caused others by my conduct.”
“Over the past thirteen months, I have had to look in the mirror like never before,” Combs wrote in the letter, obtained by TMZ. “My pain became my teacher. My sadness was my motivator. I have to admit, my downfall was rooted in my selfishness.”
Combs was convicted in July of transportation to engage in prostitution, as CrimeOnline reported. His attorneys have argued repeatedly to get him released from jail pending sentencing, to no avail. Judge Arun Subramanian has denied those requests, and last month denied a request vacate his conviction.
During the trial, jurors heard testimony from three women who accused Combs of physical or sexual abuse. Cassie Ventura, who dated Combs from 2007 to 2018, testified that Combs “stifled” her music career while forcing her to participate in “freak offs,” which often entailed her having sex with other men in Combs’ presence.
A 2016 video was leaked prior to the trial, showing Combs beating and kicking Ventura in a hotel hallway.
In his letter to Subramanian, Combs said the video “of me assaulting Cassie plays over and over in my head daily.”
“I literally lost my mind,” he wrote. “I was dead wrong for putting my hands on the woman that I loved. I’m sorry for that and always will be.”
He also mentioned one of the two other women who testified against him at trial, a woman who used the pseudonym “Jane” and who dated Combs from 2021 to 2024.
“Your honor, I thought I was was providing for Jane concerning her and her child, but after hearing her testimony, I realized that I hurt her,” he wrote. “For this I am deeply sorry.”
Combs did not mention the third victim, who used the alias “Mia” and who worked as Combs’ assistant for eight years. She accused Combs of forcing her to perform oral sex and sneaking into her bed to penetrate her without her consent. She also claimed Combs hurled objects at her and threw her against a wall.
In the remaining three pages of the letter, Combs claims he got “lost in the drugs and excess” but has now “been humbled and broken to my core.” He wrote that he’d realized that “only God can save me” and that he has now been sober for the first time in 25 years. He wrote about teaching a course about being a successful businessman to his fellow inmates and then asked for mercy “not only for my sake, but for the sake of my children.”
He also wrote about his 84-year-old mother who “sacrificed her life and dreams to provide for me and my younger sister, Keisha,” adding that she’d recently had brain surgery and decrying that he was “unable to be there for my mother when she needs me most.”
Combs wrote about what he called the “inhumane” conditions of living in jail and said that he has “lost all of my businesses” and his career.
“If you give me a chance, I would like the opportunity to share my story with people to prevent at least one person from making the mistakes that I’ve made,” he wrote.
I would ask Your Honor to make me an example of what a person can do if afforded a second chance,” he added. “If you allow me to go home to my family, I promise I will not let you down and I will make you proud.”
Prosecutors have asked Subramanian to sentence Combs to 11 years in prison. Combs’ attorneys are seeking a sentence that will essentially be for time served.
