Caroline Flack’s mother, Christine, has opened up about her “biggest regret” following the tragic suicide of the former Love Island host.

In an exclusive preview of the Disney+ documentary, “Caroline Flack: Search for the Truth,” Christine, along with her children Paul, Elizabeth, and Caroline’s twin sister Jody, visits a memorial bench in North London dedicated to the late star. Together, they reflect on Caroline’s life and legacy.

Christine, who collaborated with Disney+ on the two-part series to delve into the events leading up to Caroline’s death, shares how visiting the bench evokes a range of emotions. She reads aloud a heartfelt note she previously penned for her daughter.

“When I come here, my mood changes,” Christine expresses.

She continues, “On that particular day, I must have been feeling down. I wrote, ‘Another lonely year has passed. I miss you as much today as the day you left. I’m doing everything I can to tell the world about the terrible people who contributed to your pain. I won’t stop fighting. I love you with all my heart.'”

Her sadness prompts Elizabeth, Caroline’s older sister, to ask: ‘Do you think there will ever be a moment, mum, when you will feel content that you can stop fighting?’

Caroline Flack’s mother Christine (pictured) has revealed her ‘biggest regret’ after the former Love Island host tragically took her own life

In a first-look clip from the Disney+ documentary Caroline Flack: Search for the Truth, Christine and her children, Paul, Elizabeth, and Jody, visit the late star’s memorial bench 

The late star, known for presenting TV shows such as The X Factor and Love Island, died by suicide in February 2020

Christine has spent the five years since Caroline’s death in February 2020 searching for answers, and the documentary focuses on the final months before her suicide.

The former Love Island presenter’s passing followed her being stripped of her role on the ITV2 show and a charge of assault by beating from the CPS after an incident with her ex-boyfriend, Lewis Burton.

In response to Elizabeth, Christine said: ‘I hope I can stop. I hope there will be an end to it. You can’t fight for the rest of your life, but you can fight until the truth is out there.’  

Elizabeth replied: ‘My main anxiety is, you’re dealing with organisations that are so corrupt, they have so much money, legal experts, can you ever really get to the truth in these organisations?’  

Christine and Caroline’s brother, Paul, said that the star is the first thing on their minds when they wake up, as they gathered around her memorial bench on a rainy day.  

‘I just hope I can achieve something. And as long as you lot all don’t mind me doing it, I will go ahead’, Christine added.  

Caroline’s mother, who lives in Norfolk where the former Strictly Come Dancing winner grew up, said her ‘biggest regret’ was not speaking up during her daughter’s final months, when the family had been warned against voicing their opinions.  

Christine said: ‘I think Caroline would be pleased with what I’m doing. I wish I had done it then, before she took her own life, and that’s my biggest regret, that I wasn’t shouting like this, then. But now I have nothing to lose. The worst thing in the world happened with losing Carrie.’ 

Christine, who filmed the two-part series with the streamer to investigate the months before Caroline died, says she experiences ‘different moods’ when visiting the special spot

Christine read aloud a note she had previously written for her daughter, saying it had been another ‘lonely year’ without her 

At Caroline’s memorial bench, her family keep a wooden box bearing her name, ‘Carrie,’ and a picture of a butterfly, which mirrors one of the late star’s tattoos

There is also a piece of wood which reads ‘Sweet Caroline’ as well as fresh flowers laid by the family as they continue to grieve their devastating loss

The former Love Island presenter’s passing followed her being stripped of her role on the ITV2 show and a charge of assault by beating from the CPS (pictured July 2019)

Caroline rose to become one of the nation’s best-known presenters, hosting The X Factor, I’m A Celebrity… Get Me Out of Here! spinoff shows and Love Island. 

She also triumphed on Strictly Come Dancing, picked up a BAFTA and took to the West End stage as Roxie Hart in Chicago.

At the time of her death, Caroline was in a relationship with former semi-professional tennis player Lewis Burton, and had been accused of assaulting him following an argument at her north London home. 

Caroline admitted to hitting Lewis with a mobile phone after seeing a message that made her believe he had been unfaithful.

When Lewis said he would call the police, Caroline became distressed and injured herself before officers from the Metropolitan Police arrived at the scene. 

While the injury to Lewis’s head did not require medical treatment, Caroline was taken to hospital, where she received care for 12 hours.

As well as her presenting work, Caroline also triumphed on Strictly Come Dancing, picked up a BAFTA and took to the West End stage as Roxie Hart in Chicago 

In the weeks that followed, she was charged in connection with the incident. After learning that the case would proceed despite Lewis not pressing charges, Caroline tragically died by suicide.

In an interview with the Guardian’s G2 on Monday, Christine expressed how she believes the Crown Prosecution Service treated her daughter differently because of her celebrity status. 

She said: ‘Domestic violence needs to be taken seriously. I know how bad it is. I know people who have been through horrendous times, trapped in controlling, abusive relationships and nothing has been done to help. But this wasn’t that.’ 

In the Disney+ documentary, former Chief Crown Prosecutor Nazir Afzal says it ‘makes no sense’ that Caroline was prosecuted. 

Speaking in the film, he said: ‘The worst thing that should have happened is a caution.  

‘I can’t think of any reason [for the CPS] to proceed other than being scared of what would have been said about them.’ 

Caroline Flack: Search for the Truth is on Disney+ from 10 November