In an emotional interview on Wednesday night, Erika Kirk, the widow of conservative activist Charlie Kirk, opened up about the tragic loss of her husband. Speaking with Jesse Watters on Fox News, Erika disclosed that she has deliberately avoided watching the video capturing the moment of Charlie’s assassination. “I never saw the video. I never will see it. I never want to see it,” she expressed to Watters. “There are things you witness in life that you can never unsee. Some moments leave an indelible mark on your soul,” she continued.

“I don’t want my husband’s public assassination to be a memory I carry,” Erika added. “It’s disturbing to think that some people take pleasure in watching such events,” she concluded. During the interview, Mikey McCoy, Chief of Staff at Turning Point, recounted the moment he contacted Erika immediately after the shooting, right at the scene.

Erika Kirk also shared that she was approached about a potential apology from comedian Jimmy Kimmel, who had made jokes following the tragedy. “I told them we received their note with thanks. This isn’t our concern or problem,” she conveyed when asked by Watters about her response to Kimmel. Erika is slated to receive the Inaugural Charlie Kirk Legacy Award at the Fox News Patriot Awards on Thursday evening.

Kirk was shot dead on September 10 while speaking at a Turning Point USA event at Utah Valley University. Tyler Robinson, 22, a left-wing college dropout, has been charged with his assassination. Kirk’s widow, Erika, joined President Donald Trump at the White House last month to accept the Presidential Medal of Freedom posthumously on her husband’s behalf.

Kirk had built Turning Point USA into one of the most influential conservative youth organizations in America, known for its campus activism and annual conferences that drew thousands of young conservatives. After his death, Erika publicly delivered a statement vowing to carry on his work as the new CEO of the organization. Trump memorably eulogized Kirk at his memorial service days later and comforted Erika who mourned the loss of her husband.

‘We know the weight of this monumental loss is almost unbearable,’ he said. ‘But even in the midst of heartache and pain too great to even fathom, you have somehow found the strength and deep faith to be a comfort to millions and millions of people.’ More than 60,000 people attended the service which was held at State Farm Stadium, home of the Arizona Cardinals NFL team.