Beau Lamarre-Condon reportedly told a friend he was suicidal and intended to end his life in Bali, and later repeated those claims shortly before he allegedly killed Jesse Baird and Luke Davies.
During an extended conversation from prison, Lamarre-Condon repeatedly insisted he had not gone to Baird’s home on February 19, 2024, intending to kill anyone.
He told the friend, who cannot be identified for legal reasons, that important details about the case remained unknown, including the severity of his depression and the evidence he believed could support his defence in court.
Lamarre-Condon was heard saying he had never sought help from a psychologist because he feared doing so would cost him his job as a police officer.
He also said his original guilty plea to manslaughter over Baird’s death was intended to show he was “taking accountability”. However, he maintained that he was not accepting responsibility for Davies’ death.
Throughout the discussion, Lamarre-Condon repeatedly told his friend, “I know you’re not a liar,” while describing him as human, inexperienced and capable of making mistakes.
At another point, Lamarre-Condon insisted: “I didn’t even f***ing do it. Use your brain.”
When the friend appeared ready to leave, Lamarre-Condon urged him to stay calm, saying: “Breathe. Stop. Breathe.”
He said the idea of entering Baird’s home while it was empty came from another friend, who had wanted to collect belongings from an ex-partner’s property.
Lamarre-Condon told the friend he had planned to retrieve his own possessions from Baird’s house that day, waiting until the roommates had left before approaching the property.
He said he entered using a key Baird had previously cut for him, only to discover that Baird and his boyfriend, Luke Davies, were inside.
The court has previously heard allegations that Lamarre-Condon took Baird’s spare key and had a copy made without Baird’s knowledge.
“Can you imagine being me though? A cop? Knowing other cops aren’t going to believe me?” he asked the friend.
He argued that someone planning to murder two people would have arrived with cleaning supplies and a van, rather than using a police-issued firearm.
“You’ve seen the kids I work with, I can get a gun, I can get a gun for 10 grand,” Lamarre-Condon said.
At the time, Lamarre-Condon worked for NSW Police as a youth engagement officer, supporting troubled teenagers.
On the day Baird and Davies were allegedly killed, he was wearing an Uber Eats uniform and helmet.
Lamarre-Condon told his friend that Baird did not recognise him at first, then “kicked off” after realising someone had entered the home.
According to evidence previously heard by the court, Lamarre-Condon says he went to collect his belongings and was carrying his police-issued weapon because officers were trained not to leave their firearms inside a vehicle.
He claims Baird failed to recognise him in the delivery disguise and attacked him, triggering a struggle during which the gun discharged and fatally struck Baird. He further alleges Davies grabbed the weapon and accidentally shot himself.
Prosecutors allege he went to the house with the intention of killing Baird, and allegedly killed Davies because he couldn’t have any witnesses.
In the recorded conversation, Lamarre-Condon told the friend: ‘I’m not going to say anything specific, I love you, look in my eyes: I did not do anything.
‘Thank God it’s supported by evidence, and you’re going to see it on the news.
‘Look at me for a sec … I don’t believe you’re a liar, I know you’re not, but I do know that humans get things wrong, very experienced cops can get things wrong, and you’re not a cop, you don’t have experience.’
The court previously heard that Lamarre-Condon asked his mother to rent a Mazda before the alleged murders so he could go to Baird’s house in a car that was not recognisable.
In the recording, he told his friend: ‘I got a hire car that my mum had because her car was in for service in Marrickville from February 19 to March 18, and we’re going to produce this evidence in court.’
So far, the court has not heard evidence that his mother’s car was being serviced between those dates.
Lamarre-Condon said it was possible the friend had misheard their prior conversations, but that didn’t mean he lied in his statement.
The friend tried to leave the conversation a number of times. Each time he did, Lamarre-Condon could be heard saying: ‘Now we’re getting somewhere.’
The friend sounded confused, but stayed.
Lamarre-Condon said: ‘I’m not worried about you going to court, I’m not worried for me, for my own selfish reasons, because it’s going to be very easy to show that [in court].’
‘I’m not trying to deter you, I want you to go [to court], but be honest about everything.’
‘[This has] traumatised you and now I’m taking accountability, I’m actually trying so hard not to cry now.’
He said that he planned to take his own life before the alleged murders, but couldn’t stand the thought of his mother or friends seeing him dead.
‘The only thing I was thinking about was you guys – do I want people to see my dead body? No,’ he could be heard saying.
Lamarre-Condon then referred to an instance earlier that year when he took the friend into a national park, fired his police gun, and asked if anyone else would have heard the shots.
In the conversation, he told the friend that he actually wanted to take his life that day. He said he had planned on going back to the park and and taking own life when no one was around.
During the conversation, he then said to the friend, forcefully: ‘Listen for a sec I’m nearly done.’
‘Now you’re about to see all the jigsaw puzzle pieces.’